January 9, 2011 – Repeat Until Pregnant

I am starting another dose of Clomid today.  After talking to my doctor and doing some additional research, we decided it was the best move.  Most women with mild endometriosis conceive on Clomid within 5 months.  I don’t know if I will make it 5 months, but it is worth another try.  If we haven’t been able to conceive after 6 months on Clomid, we will be classified as Clomid infertile… that just means we will be going with IVF.  IVF is terrifying for a number of reasons (daily shots are just one).  The biggest question is whether or not we will be able to afford it.  The doctor told us it would be around $15,000!  We are starting to save, but we may not be able to make that work.  Although the residency program would help pay for the procedure (have I mentioned how deep my love is for this program), we would still need to pay the doctor and pay for all the meds, which is the bulk of the bill.  Honestly, if I had the money I might be tempted to jump ahead and do IVF now rather than face another Clomid month… but I am sure there is a reason we are going through this journey, so I am trying to be patient.  

I am also still under orders to relax.  So, it is time to put away these future worries.  I will continue to save any extra cash that comes our way, but otherwise I am not going to worry about IVF or 5 more Clomid months.  Instead I am making sure that I have plenty of time to relax and take care of myself.  We have a couple of parties and benefits planned this month, but otherwise we cleared the schedule.  No visitors this month, because having company (even people you love) can be stressful.  This will be the first month since our move that we haven’t entertained company at least once!  I learned last month that entertaining company while sick from Clomid was more stressful than it was fun.  There is nothing worse than knowing people are waiting on you while you are sick in the bathroom or trying to make dinner while nauseous.  Hearing through the grapevine that people thought you were rude for the amount of time spent in the bathroom is just more stress that I don’t need.  So, no to visitors this month.  No to traveling this month.  We are homebound and loving it!  Doc and I have always loved hiding away together, watching movies, and ordering Chinese food… so here is to a month of our favorite activity! J