October 25, 2011 - Give me a break

I think it is time to give myself a little break from worrying about infertility. I decided that this month I need to let go of some of the constant worry and reminders.  Doc and I discussed it and he is going to take over some of it.  For this month he’s going to be counting days and I’m just going to follow his lead.  I’m not going to be taking any ovulation or fertility tests.  I’m just going to try and enjoy my favorite month of the year.  I need to break. 

As for our other looming decisions, we’ve discussed those as well.  We’ve decided that I will see the specialist next month, by myself.  Doc will be working his inpatient month in November, which means I will only see him when he needs to sleep or be home so he doesn’t have a duty-hour violation.  By getting all the pre-work done by myself I am hoping that we can push the surgery back to a month when Doc is more available.  I think the hospital will give him time off for the surgery if it isn’t during an inpatient month.  They can’t afford to be short a doctor during those months.  The hospital is short a few doctors right now and until those positions are filled all of the current doctors need to be working steady.  While I hate putting things off, I hate the idea of doing it completely on my own more.  I can’t ask the hospital to sacrifice a doctor when I can so easily move the dates I need my husband. 

So, we are continuing on this path until we hear otherwise.  This month started out rough, but now that I’ve decided to give myself a little break things are looking a lot better.  I realize that not everything is in my control and I am doing everything I can to improve our odds.  The rest is in someone else’s hands.  J