It is hard to believe how quickly the time flies. We are gearing up for another session of trying
(which I have dubbed our “try-cycle”). I
have my final HCG lab draw on Tuesday; once the all clear is given we are free
to start trying again. I should start my
period within a few days after that and we will start another round of
Clomid. I am trying not to dwell on the
side effects and crazy hormone madness that will follow that. Instead I am focusing on enjoying the last
few days of the forbidden fruits. I am indulging
in soft cheeses, pina coladas, spicy foods (which I could only tolerate for the
first month of pregnancy before the heartburn kicked in), and a little caffeine
(although I am cutting back). I am also
making sure that I am getting myself back on a rigid schedule for my meds,
vitamins, meals and sleep. In short, I
am doing all of the things I need to do to ensure we have the best possible
chances of conception.
We are starting to get a little excited about trying again. It is really hard to explain to people who haven’t struggled with infertility, but you can actually get tired of sex. I can tell instantly if someone has struggled with infertility by their reaction to a comment about the scheduled trying. Anyone who hasn’t had forced sex every other day for 8 months will think it sounds like fun. Anyone who has had fertility issues is more understanding. When you are on a scheduled fertility period there is no break. You have taken drugs, suffered side effects, and you may only get one shot. You have sex regardless of your feelings. You have sex when sick, if you have company, if you are exhausted, if you are angry with your spouse. You do it because you have to if you want to have a hope of getting pregnant. You have sex in the position your doctor tells you to and you stay in bed for an hour after sex, just like the doctor told you. It isn’t exactly the playboy fantasy. Thankfully, we had a break where we couldn’t have sex and couldn’t be trying and we are back to being interested in each other.
I think it also helps that we are both hopeful that our try-cycle will be shorter this time. We know we can get pregnant, we know the Clomid worked after only 2 months last time, we are hopeful. We are planning on success. Wish us luck! J
We are starting to get a little excited about trying again. It is really hard to explain to people who haven’t struggled with infertility, but you can actually get tired of sex. I can tell instantly if someone has struggled with infertility by their reaction to a comment about the scheduled trying. Anyone who hasn’t had forced sex every other day for 8 months will think it sounds like fun. Anyone who has had fertility issues is more understanding. When you are on a scheduled fertility period there is no break. You have taken drugs, suffered side effects, and you may only get one shot. You have sex regardless of your feelings. You have sex when sick, if you have company, if you are exhausted, if you are angry with your spouse. You do it because you have to if you want to have a hope of getting pregnant. You have sex in the position your doctor tells you to and you stay in bed for an hour after sex, just like the doctor told you. It isn’t exactly the playboy fantasy. Thankfully, we had a break where we couldn’t have sex and couldn’t be trying and we are back to being interested in each other.
I think it also helps that we are both hopeful that our try-cycle will be shorter this time. We know we can get pregnant, we know the Clomid worked after only 2 months last time, we are hopeful. We are planning on success. Wish us luck! J
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