August 20, 2012 - Let the fun begin!

Today is Day 1 of my 3^rd round of Clomid.  I have been feeling very anxious this weekend.  I indulged in a few pregnancy forbidden foods and drinks (pina colada, donut, sweet tea, deli meat, etc.) and attempted to clean and bake my way out of anxiety.  Waking up at 6am tells me I was unsuccessful.  I can’t put my finger on the exact reason for my anxiety.  I can’t tell if it is because I am nervous about the side effects, nervous about getting pregnant again, or if I am just having some random anxiety.  I just know I am anxious.  It could also be this little fear that we will go through all of this again only to not get pregnant at all.  It is hard to sign up for these awful side effects, the constant poking and prodding, the intense scheduling and to not be guaranteed an outcome. 

This weekend Doc and I reviewed the schedule to make sure that we have our trying days planned for when he is not working and is in town.  He has to go out of town for a few days for work this month, which makes things difficult when we are supposed to be trying every other day.  Looking at the calendar was a little daunting.  I had forgotten how scheduled our lives were when we were trying.  It made me very grateful for our break.  We have Clomid for the next 5 days, flu shot today (so I am covered this season), on Day 21 I go in for a progesterone check, Day 28 is a check to make sure my ovaries are not overstimulated, and Day 32 is a pregnancy test if I haven’t started my period.  Rinse and repeat.  I am really hoping we are pregnant by the end of this cycle.