I am sorry for the long delay between posts. The reality is we are stuck in the IUI loop
and nothing really new has happened for me to talk about. It is also March, which in our world means
Match and with Doc being chief next year we actually have a lot to do to
welcome the new doctors to our program. My
dear friend who delivered the most gorgeous baby girl in February has also been
so generous to me and allowed me to be very involved in their lives. God bless her for that. I am thankful for all of these things because
they keep me too busy to wallow.
Besides, it is impossible for me to feel sorry for myself when I am holding
a beautiful baby and she is snuggling into me.
J
As we move further along in the IUI loop Doc and I have had
to face the reality that children may not be a possibility for us. After 4 sessions (April) we will meet back
with our doctor to discuss what our next course of action should be. He had told us that two thirds of all
patients are pregnant by 4 sessions. We
are in the middle of 3, so we may very well be in that other third. That is not an easy thought to grasp. I don’t
really know what the future holds for us starting a family. So I have decided to just let it be. I am taking the pause button off of my
life. I will complete the final cycle of
IUI but I am not going to spend every day counting down the days and I am not
going to spend every moment being careful.
Instead I am taking my life back, enjoying the beautiful and wonderful
things all around me and just letting go of the worry. I will write when something new happens, but it may be the end of April before we hear anything new.
Until then, I will leave you all with the immortal words of John Lennon &
Paul McCartney, “There will be an answer. Let it be.”
